He still be my hero :)

Hmm malas lah kan nak cerita pasal busteng tu =.=' The most important is, awak still nak tolong sya bila sya susah kan? Hmm Thank you banyak banyak awak. Sya terharu gila td bila awak sanggup datang. Hmm Tp kan best kalau awak ni still boyfriend sya :( Hmm Masa kat library td sya hanya mampu pandang awak jeh. Tak boleh pgg tangan awak, bergurau dengan awak. Hmm Masa makan kat KFC td lg lah. Sya rasa nak pandang awak je. Tak nak pandang org lain dh, Sbb masa tu je peluang sya kan? Hanya tengok awak dr jauh :) Lepas ni mcm mana lg nak tengok awak kan? Hmm

Cerita Lama

Awak, awak ingat lg tak gambar kat atas ni? Kita g tc kan? Sya ingt lg time tu awak baru balik dr kampung then awak terus g TC sbb nak jumpa sya kot Hee Then kita jalan jalan kat TC. Time ni kita tak couple lg, but kita pegang tangan, jalan jalan kat tepi pantai, borak borak. Hmm Best gila time ni. Then kita balik dengan senior sya naik kereta. Masa otw nak g kat kereta, Kak Azza jatuh. Then awak gelak mcm org gila Haha Sya ada mintak rantai awak yg spider tu kan? Masa dalam kereta awak baiki rantai tu sbb mcm rosak. Bila dh elok, awak pun pakaikan kat sya dr belakang. Awak suruh sya jaga rantai awak elok elok and sya ingt masa tu ada lagu Today Is A Fairytale By Taylor Swift. Sya dengar awak nyanyi lagu tu. Hee Awak tahu tak yg sya rindu sangat kita yg dulu. Kita yg masa mula mula kenal dulu Hmmmm :'(

Rindu :(

Hmmm mcm biasalahkan. Pasal dia lg :) Hmm rindu gila masa awak dengan Wan datang rumah sya nak study. Time tu sya nak trial. Hee Konon datang nak study. Padahal bergalok lebih Haha Then awak ajak sya g dapur, awak ckp awak lapaaar. Awak suruh sya buat roti untuk awak. Roti dengan jam. Tp awak tak nak jam, awak nak kayaa. Haha Hmm Masa sya buat awak duduk sebelah sya. Then awak membebel ckp sya letak tk banyak kaya tu Haha Banyak songeh =.=' Then sambil awak buat tu awak ckp yg awak rindu sya :) Then Wan Zue semua bising cakap nak roti jugak. Then awak pun buat lah untuk dorang. Sya tukang bg. Haha Then kita study jap. Awak ada ajar sya buat math, yg graph tu. Haha Awak marah sya sbb sya ni nak spm dh. Sya suka bila awak gosok kepala sya tau. Hmmm Tp lepas ni sya tak ada peluang dh nak rasa awak gosok kepala sya hmmm :') Awaaaaaaaaak, kenapa awak tak rasa apa yang sya rasa heh? Eh, dekat tangan sya ada huruf nama awak yang tak akan hilaaaang. Sorry sya tipu awak. Sya mmg hiris tangan sya. Sbb sya tension sangat dh awak. Tp awak tak payah risaulah k? Mcm sya ckp kat awak, bukan sakit sangat pun. Kalau sya sakit pun sbb hiris tangan sya, sakit lg sya tanggung untuk belajar hidup tanpa awak. Fyi, sya tak akan belajar untuk lupakan awak, tp sya akan belajar untuk hidup tanpa awak :)

My Weekness

Sya lemah bila dengar lagu lagu ni :')


1. Bila Cinta By Gio, OST 'Lagenda Budak Setan'
2. Yang Terindah By Dakmie OST 'Adamaya'
3. Ku Ingin Kamu By Romance
4. Dynamite By Taio Cruz
5. The Way You Are By Bruno Mars
6. One Less Lonely Girl By Justin Bieber
7. Love The Way You Lie By Eminem Feat Rihhana
8. What About Now By Chris Daughtry
9. Your Love Is My Drug By Keisha
10. Ku mahu Kau Tahu By Hujan

Sya ingat semua lagu yang awak nyanyi untuk sya, awak bagi untuk sya, fav lagu awak dan lagu kita :)

Awak :)

Hmm tiap hari en, ada je pasal awak muncul hmm :) Td ada bengkel agama. Belajar tajwid semua. Then ada pulak lah hukum Alif apa entah. Haihh nama awak tu Hee Then petang tu ada function band dekat Jabatan Pe;ajaran Negeri Pahang, kena naik bus. Bus tu pulak bus sekolah SABS, sekolah awak kan? Haha Hmm tengok? Mcm mana lah sya nak lupakan awak? :( On the way g jabatan tu, lalu pulak dh dekat taj IM8 tu. Adeeeh, banyak kenangan kita dekat sana kan? Hmm Sya rasa nak suruh je uncle bus tu stop jap, then nak g tengok awak Haha haihh, mcm mcm sya ni. Then lalu pulak kat gainward, Fuhh hanya Allah je tahu perasaan sya masa tu. Berier sya tgk kot kot nampak awak Haha Hmm Kat gainward lah kita selalu lepak kan? Sya ingt lg awak bg sya dengar lagu 'Yang Terindah'. Awak ckp lagu ni untuk sya kan? Hee Sya still ingat lg awaak. Hmm Rindu awak :) By the way, kalau awak nak tahu lah kan. Sya ada tulis something pada kerusi bas sekolah awak tu. Heeeee

Ku Ingin Kamu

Tajuk/Lirik Lagu: Ku Ingin Kamu
Artis: Romance

Dari semua yang aku jalani bersamamu
Ku ingin engkau jadi milikku
Ku ingin kau disampingku
Tanpa dirimu
Ku hanya manusia tanpa cinta
Dan hadirmu yang bisa membawa syurga dalam hatiku

(*)
Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini menemani..

Sentuhanmu bagaikan tangan sang dewi cinta
Yang berhiaskan bunga asmara
Dan membuatku tak kuasa
Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku
Aku akan mencintaimu
Menjagamu selama hidupku
Dan aku kan berjanji
Hanya kaulah yang kusayangi
Ku akan setia disini menemani

Di setiap arung gerakmu
Tersimpan di hati kecilku
Bahawa dirimu terindah untukku

(Ulang *)

(Ulang) (5x)
Selama ku masih bisa bertahan
Selama ku masih bisa bernafas
Selama Tuhan masih mengizinkan
ku ingin selalu menjagamu…

Haihh, lemah rasa bila dengar lagu ni :') Orang yg dh hilang dr hidup sya, dh tinggal sya nyanyi lagu ni dekat sya. Betul betul dekat telinga sya. Hee Setiap kali dengar lagu ni, sya still boleh dengar suara dia nyanyi dekat telinga kiri sya :'( Hmmm Awak, awak ingat lg tak masa tu? Sya harap awak still ingat. Sbb sya tak akan lupa semua ni :)

The One and Only

Awaaaaak. Sumpah demi Allah sya rindu awak :( Sya rindu awak pgg tangan sya, awak cium dahi sya, awak pandang sya, awak senyum dekat sya, awak ketawa. Haihh, hanya tuhan je tahu mcm mana sya rasa awak. Hmm Awak tak rasa ke apa yang sya rasa sekarang? Yelah kan? Orang dh ada gf baru, tak kan nak ingt gf lama kot? Hmm Banyak gila kenangan kita kan? Sya ingt lg awak selalu follow sya mama and papa shopping dekat carrefour kan? Papa mama jalan dua org, kita jalan dua org. Bahagia je rasa masa tu. Then kita ada pergi lunch sama sama dekat 'Diosis'. Kita buat kononnya tu mcm kedai kita. Kita selalu makan dekat sana kan? Haha Then kedai 'Alif' pun kita suka makan sama, sbb tu fav kedai mamak sya. Sya ingt lg awak ckp dekat sya yg sya ni first gf awak yg nak je makan dengan awak. Kalau gf lama awak, dia bg alasan dh kenyang sbb tak nak makan dengan awak. Hee Awak ada jugak ckp yg banyak benda baru yg awak buat dengan sya. Kan? Haha Awak oh awak, apa lg lah kelemahan sya sampai awak tak nak dekat sya? Hmm Sya tahu sya dh buat banyak salah dekat awak. Tapi kan, Hmm entah lah. Susah nak buat awak faham. Kalaulah apa yg dh jd sekarang ni hanya mimpi, mmg sya bersyukur sangat. Tp ternyata ni semua bukan mimpi, mmg betul. So, sya tak boleh buat apa lah kan. Hmm Kenapalah semua ni jd time nak SPM? Adeh Tak bersemangat rasa nak belajar. Dalam kelas selalu cerita pasal awak tau dengan Zue Haha Zue jd pendengar dan pemberi pendapat. Thanks Zue, sayang kau :) Hmm Mmg setiap masa kot ckp pasal awak, tak ada org lain dh. Tp tak tahu lah kan awak ada ckp pasal sya ke tak. Sya ni sokmo syok sendiri. Kesian sya. Haha Hm Sya just nak awak tahu lah kan, yang sya suka bf mcm awak ni. Sya suka mcm bergalok galok dr romantik romantik. Mcm awak suka kacau sya pe semua. Paling sakit hati sekali bila awak baling bantal dekat sya masa kat rumah sya. GRR Sabar jelah kan Haha haihhh Rindunyaa lah. Kalau sya ddk dekat kerusi yg selalu kita tgk tv sama tu kan, mesti sya teringat awak, and sya akan senyum sosorang sbb teringat awak tau :) Tapikan, tu semua tggl kenangan kan? Tak mungkin kot sya dpt rasa gembira time sya dengan awak bergurau tu. Awak dh jd orang lain punya, tak baik kacau. Hee Hmm, kalau nak luah kan lagi perasaan kat sini mmg panjang lebar lah kan. Hmm Btw, I MISS US :'(

Its time for me to go :)

It seem like you are happy now. Maybe you have found your new life partner. Im sure that you are happy and Im happy when you are happy. Please, dont treat her the way you treat me before. Make it better. I hope you will always happy. Dont worry about me. I'll be okay soon. Besides, I've promise to myself that I'll never fall in love again. I dont deserve to love someone and being love. So, its better not for me to fall in love again. Im scared that my mistakes I've did before come and haunt me. So, it is time for me to go, and make my own way. It is hard for me to go through all this, but it is all my faith. Good Bye my lover :')

26March-18 October 2010. Sorry, blame it on me.

26 March 2010, What a great day :) A new lover came into my life. Thanked god for that. First, we getting know each other from MySpace. I still remember that. He always be the first person comment me and I was like okay. Haha Then he ask me, what am I doing right now? So I answered that Im survey for a new boyfriend. And he suddenly ask for my number, gently. Then I gave it to him without thinking Haha Hmm Can I turn back time? No way right? :( Em, then I was like a happiest girl in this world, Cewahh So, on the first day we met was on 22 January 2010. Damn, only god knows how I felt that day. But I try to be cool. Haha Then, we watched movie together. He chose 'Legion' and I dont know why, but I just watch it Haha After we watched the movie, we hang together and wait for my mom to fatch me. We wait outside of the mall. And when my mom came, I just left him and get into the car. Then he text me. He said 'Tak salam dah I bila nak balik' something like that lah. Hee Hmm Then we go through our day together. We text everday, we meet almost everday :) And the day I was taken by him was on 26 March 2010 its on Friday. Yes, Im taken by him. All my loves grow grow and grow. We're happy together. You know what? There's one sweet movie that is meaningful for us. That is 'Lagenda Budak Setan'. We watched it on 3 Jun 2010. And he said that the soundtrack of this movie'Bila Cinta' is our song. Hee Oh ya, on every our anniverssary, we celebrate it together. But, not every month. The most moment I remember is, we buy a piece of cake and we ate it together. And suddenly he suap me and he said 'Happy Anniverssary sayang' and he gave me a sweet smile. Only god knows how I felt on that moment. Hmm Then we have a great time togehter. Untill one day, he made a mistake that maybe it is not his fault, but Im blame it on him. Because of that, we broke up. And I've made a BIG mistake :( I got another guy and I've tried to forget him, but I really really can't. And on 16 of September, I've made my decision to be honest with him and get back with him. I knew that I'll broke his heart when he know about that guy. Then one day, we have some problem together on his birthday. He told me that this is the first time, his birthday turn to be a bad day Hmm once again, Im a heartbreaker :( Then he made his decision and we broke up. And I think I deserve that :) I think because of that, Im getting sick. I went to the hospital to make a medical check up and evertyhing. And I told him about this, and because of that, we're back together. And we have a great time together like before. Then one day, he act weird. He dont text me, he reject all my calls, and dont event meet me. And one day, he told me that my big mistake that I told him on 16 of September haunt him. I asking to myself why not it haunt me? Why him? He dont deserve that :( And now, because of the mistake that I've done. I live in this world alone, without him. he told me that he need to be alone. And I respect his decision and I deserve that. 18 October is the date, he lived me. Maybe its a revenged from what I've did to him. And now, Im still learning and teach myself to live in this wolrd without him. Sorry, blame it on me *Sorry for the broken English